God! Are You There?

 

 

Your heart cries out: ‘God! Do not be silent.’ Unfortunately, there is no answer.

 

You wait and you try to be patient, but not even a whisper vibrates the deepest part of your inner most being.

 

Your inner most part, where God has made his journey, has experienced something similar before, when you let yourself be vulnerable and you opened yourself for others to travel through.

 

You thought they would stay, but they had other ideas, and they slipped away through the night hours so they could not be seen anymore, leaving your heart empty; it produced agony and pain.

 

Where is he, has God moved on, was his stay only temporary too, has he slipped away through the night hours like those from the earth, does he not see your trouble, surely he must?

 

Your tears well up, they will not stop, your eyes feel like they are drowning in this flood of saline fluid, they come from the lacrimal gland but it feels like they come from the deepest portions of your being.

 

Your soul is overwhelmed, it sees the grave opening up, and ready to take you in  like a thief who takes something he does not own.

 

Your hearts continues to scream, ‘God! Turn your face to me, know my despondency.’

Have you read the Psalms lately?

 

One of the writers of the Psalms was, Heman the Ezrahite, who was thought to be one of the three Levites instructed by the King of Israel, King David, to minister in music; he is believed to have been the writer of Psalm eighty eight.

 

It is believed that this Heman was related to Samuel the Prophet, supposedly his grandson, who eventually became one of King David’s seers, one from the company of prophets (1Chron.25:5).

 

Skimming through Psalm eighty eight, one cannot help but notice the sheer agony this man was going through, this Psalm indicates that he was on the edge of death, the grave had its eye on him.

 

This death may have been literal but he may have been referring to his emotional state.

 

Heman blames God for the exile of his soul, perceiving that God's wrath is heavily upon him, that his hand of anger is overwhelming him, the reason for him being on the edge of death.

 

He accuses God of making his closest friends repulsed by him, they could not stand him (תּוֹעֵבָה) {tow`ebah}, they considered him a disgusting object.

 

Was their abomination of Heman because he was at deaths door or was there another reason?

 

Generally your closest friends are not repulsed because you are near the end of your life but they can reject you if you are completely given over to the will of God, the syntax of the scripture seems to indicate this.

 

A life given over to the will of God usually has an abstruse effect on the lives of other people who are not given over to him.

Heman cries out to the Lord, seeks his face, with every part of his being, every morning and everyday, but God seems far away from him; he believes that God has rejected him.

 

Grief and sorrow, heartache and pain, had gripped Heman like a hand come up out the sea pulling him down into the waters, the light has disappeared, all he can see is darkness, so he embraces the darkness as a companion.

 

Seeing the darkness as his closet friend he is terrified of the Lords wrath.

 

Sometimes we can be overtaken by situations in life, life is not fair for some people; even God's people.

 

God's people can get overwhelmed just like Heman was.

 

Life was not easy for this prophet, even from his youth he was afflicted and wanted to die, he dreaded life and was in despair.

 

You think it is strange that you suffer similarities to this prophet, has God rejected you, does he hide his face from you?

 

Jesus suffered, this Psalm is similar to his life; he suffered at the hands of men.

 

We are destined to suffer too, if we are his children, heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ Jesus our Lord.

 

We will suffer in this life so that one day we will be glorified with Christ  at his coming.

 

The Apostle Paul had the revelation that the sufferings in this life are inconsequential to the glory that will be revealed in us, at the day and hour when God raptures the body of believers into the Lord’s presence.

 

Our bodies will be redeemed and our salvation will finally be completed.

 

So do not give up, continue in him until the day of his coming.

 

YouTube Video:  Danielle Rose Psalm 88

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